Came upon this excrept about love and decide to share it
If Love’s a Sweet Passion, why does it torment?
If a Bitter, oh tell me whence comes my content?
Since I suffer with pleasure, why should I complain,
Or grieve at my Fate, when I know ’tis in vain?
Yet so pleasing the Pain is, so soft is the Dart,
That at once it both wounds me, and Tickles my Heart.
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A year has end, 2009 is a emotion driven year for me. Went from a low paying job to being jobless then landed this gig at Lenovo. Had a rather taxing relationship at the beginning of the year. I can feel myself being placed more important by Sharon as the months go by. She started devoting more time for me during June. Then come August, she started to be more committed into our relationship and with more commitment comes expectations and realisations.
We’re still learning about each other, what makes us tick, why she reacts to things that means not as much as I would like to. We learnt things the hard way and because of that, we grew to understand more of what kind of a person we are, our aspirations and desires.
It was a long bumpy road and I do not expect anything less in the year 2010.
Anyway, there were some things that went right. I met her mother! She came over to meet my parents! I met a few of her friends! Lastly, on 31st Dec 09, she finally met my clique of “brothers and sisters”! That was a huge achievment and it was very important that my gf actually meets them. Because without them, I will not turn out the way I am right now. Kendrick, Aldrick, Chi Ho, Xinyi and Shuting were the people that were with me during that important stage of “teenagehood” and I tell myself that if my gf does not accept and welcome them as part of me, she can never have the whole of me. I am not forcing her to love them as much as she loves me but to understand why this clique is so important to me.
Anyway, we planned our gathering on 31st Dec, we went potluck and gathered at Aldrick’s studio. Had a great time at his place. Food! Abit of games and lastly, photo taking! Sharon had a great time and I can tell she really tries to know more about them. Previously, I feel that a line has been drawn between my clique and Sharon and it was very frustrating that sometimes I had to choose between meeting them or Sharon. I am not saying that now she has met them, I am able to meet my clique more often. I just hope that she can understand why meeting my clique is actually essential to me. I think now she understands why I really wish to meet my friends.
I can say that I ended 2009 on a promising note.
Come 3rd Jan 09, I brought Sharon to my colleague’s wedding. I also do not know why I wanted to bring her along. I knew that I must bring her along because I want her to know that one day, I will marry her. Ok ok, all you guys can start to scold, dispise and scorn at me. I used to hate marriages and all that crap. But as long as you open up yourself to THE ONE (oh, anybody can be the one if both of you love each other to accept each other as they are) and just take the leap.
She finally met some of the colleagues that I work with. Now, she sees more of my life. Now, I can relate to her more. Now I understand why people advise “you should meet the friends and colleagues of your other half”. This is to enable her to better understand you and what you are facing in your everyday life so she can better relate to you. I used to think it was unnecessary but I guess it’s really important.
2010 can only get better!
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Mark Gungor explains the difference between men’s brain and women’s brain. A delightful and honest explanation. You can have a good laugh at it too.
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Saw an interesting group in Facebook talking about what girls should know about us dudes.
1. Guys dont actually like sluts as much as they say they do, even though they have sex with them!
(Oh yeah… you’re not “popular” if you’ve slept with loads of guys… you’re probably just a HOE)
2. “Hey, are you busy?” or “Are you doing something?” are two phrases guys open with to stop from stammering on the phone.
3. Guys may be flirting around all day but before they go to sleep, they always think about the girl they truly care about.
4. Before they call, guys try to plan out a little about what they’re gonna say so there aren’t awkward pauses, but once he’s on the phone he forgets it all and makes it up as he goes.
5. Guys go crazy over a girl’s smile, it’s usually more important than the body.
6. Guys will do anything just to get you to notice him.
7. Guys hate it when you talk about your ex-boyfriend or ex love-interest. Unless they’re goin for the let-her-complain-to-you-and-then-have-her-realize-how-wonderful-and-nice-you-are method.
8. A guy who likes you wants to be the only guy you talk to; if a guy knows a girl likes him but doesn’t like her… he still wants to be the only guy she talks to.
9. Boyfriends need to be reassured often that they’re still loved.
10. Don’t talk about your guy friends to your boyfriend, unless it’s negative, then it’s cool.
11. Guys get jealous very easily, even if they don’t show it.
12. Guys are more emotional than they’d like people to think.
13. Giving a guy a hanging message like “You know what?!… ugh… nevermind…” would make him jump to a conclusion that is far from what you are thinking. And he’ll assume he did something wrong and he’ll obsess about it trying to figure it out.
14. Guys are good flatterers when courting but they usually stammer when they talk to a girl they really like. If a guy seems cool around girls, just see how he acts in front of the girl he really likes.
15. Guys hate asking parents for money to buy girls presents. So they come up with ideas like saving their lunch money for a week. But it never works because guys are always hungry so they end up asking the parents for money anyway.
16. Girls are guys’ weaknesses.
17. Guys are very open about themselves if you just ask.
18. It’s good to test a guy first before you trust him. But don’t let him wait too long.
19. Your best friend, whom your boyfriend seeks help from about his problems with you may end up being admired by your boyfriend.
20. If a guy tells you about his problems, he just needs someone to listen to him. You don’t need to give advice unless he asks for it.
21. A usual act that proves that the guy likes you is when he teases you. Poking, light pushing, blocking your way and random high 5’s are tell tell signs.
22. Guys love you more than you love them if they are serious in your relationships.
23. Guys will brag about anything if you don’t tell them not to.
24. Guys use words like buff or cute to describe girls. We rarely use beautiful. If a guy uses that, he likes you, if he uses it to describe other girls, he probably just wants to sound sweet in front of you, and therefore likes you.
25. Guys think WAY too much. One small thing a girl does, even if she doesn’t notice it can make the guy think about it for hours, trying to figure out what it meant.
26. Guys love it when girls wear their clothes (jacket, hat, etc) especially if it’s a girl they like, they will often let them wear it in unreasonable circumstances…like the pouring rain.
27. Any guy could write out a rulebook or advice book for flirting, but no guy can write out a book about relationships.
28. Try to be as straightforward as possible, if you like a guy, just tell him, they’ll usually be flattered. If there is something wrong with your relationship, just tell him, if hes a nice guy he’ll do his best to fix the problem.
29. A guy has to experience rejection, because if he’s too-good-never-been-busted, never been in love and hurt, he won’t be mature and grown up.
30. If the guy does something stupid in front of the girl, he will think about it for the next couple days or until the next time he spends time with the girl.
31. No matter how much guys talk about arses and boobs, personality is key.
32. Guys learn from experience not from the romance books that girls read and take as their basis of experience, your NEVER going to meet Mr. Darcy.
33. Guys worry about the thin line between being compassionate and being whipped.
34. If a guy looks unusually calm and laid back, he’s probably faking it and is spazzing inside.
35. When a guy says he is going crazy about the girl, he really is. Guys rarely say that.
36. When a guy asks you to leave him alone, he’s just actually saying, “Please come and talk to me.”
37. Guys don’t really have final decisions.
38. If a guy starts to talk seriously, listen to him. It doesn’t happen that often, so when it does, you know something’s up.
39. If your best guy friend seems to avoid you or is never around when you’re with your boyfriend, he’s probably jealous and likes you.
40. When a guy looks at you for longer than 3 seconds, he’s definitely thinking something.
41. Guys like femininity not feebleness.
42. Guys don’t like girls who punch harder than they do.
43. A guy has more problems than you can see with your naked eyes.
44. Don’t be a snob. Guys can be intimidated and give up easily.
45. Everything in moderation. Put on makeup, wear perfume. Just not too much.
46. Guys talk about girls more than girls talk about guys.
47. Guys hate rejection, but they hate being led on even more.
48. Guys really think that girls are strange and have unpredictable decisions and are MAD confusing but somehow are drawn even more to them.
49. A guy would give his left nut to be able to read a girl’s mind for a day.
50. No guy can handle all his problems by his own. He’s just too stubborn to admit it.
51. Not all guys are dickheads. Just because ONE is doesnt mean he represents ALL of us. Quit assuming.
52. We don’t like girls who are too skinny.
53. We love it when girls talk about their boobs.
54. Always make sure you know what kind of stuff you’re getting into before making out with a guy…like whether it’s a one time deal or not…
55. Believe it or not shy guys are the easiest to talk to, it may not seem right but trust me they will start opening up like books after you just ask them questions about their lives and unoticabley tell them about yours.
56. When a guy hits your butt it means that he wants you sexually.
57. When a guy doesn’t touch you flirtily alot, but smiles at you a lot and makes eye contact a lot, its probably because he likes you and feels weird about touching you…but really wants to.
58. Even if they refuse it all guys are ticklish on the ribs.
59. Guys love neck rubs and if he lets you keep doing it… it means that he really likes you or his neck really hurts.
60. Guys seek for advice from girls not other guys. Because most guys think alike, so if one guy’s confused, then we’re all confused.
61. If a guy tells you to dump your boyfriend, he’s being a twat, if he tells you that there is the possibility of finding someone else (HIM) if you do dump him, he probably likes you and just wants to see you happy.
62. No matter how much they complain (if they do), guys actually like it when girls lean on them.
63. Guys relate everything a lot of things to sex… a joke, a slip of the tongue, a giggle, a yawn, a stretch, whatever…its stupid but true.
64. If you add a guy on myspace or Facebook and you don’t know him…chances are he’ll assume its because you’re attracted to him.
65. If a guy acts like a dick sometimes and doesnt trust you, it might be because he has been badly hurt in the past and is afraid to open up again.
66. Just because a guy isn’t holding/kissing you, doesnt mean he doesn’t want to, you might just need to initiate it.
67. All guys want to make you happy (unless they’re pricks), some just don’t know how…so help them out.
68. Most guys just naturally prefer a girl with a bit of curve.
69. Guys are just as self conscious and insecure as girls, ;we also fear rejection, the guy who really likes you is the one who will never dare say so.
70. Boys liked to be talked to. A guy will feel more comfortable around a girl if the girl starts talking to them.
71. The way a girl moves her body can easily be much sexier than anything she says or does.
72. Girls: when you slow down with your boyfriend, make sure you give a damn good reason or we feel like its our fault because we can’t comprehend that you really just want to slow down.
73. Every guy has a ‘neeky’ side of him. Whether it be playin games, watching movies, or playing football, but don’t make fun of him if you don’t like it, unless it’s something you both find funny, otherwise just try and learn to like it. Don’t try to change him. If he’s constantly ignoring you for that thing, tell him, he’ll probably try and do it less.
74. Guys will always check out other girls, even if we make it less obvious when we’re around you, it does not mean we’re considering leaving you for the girl on the bus. It just comes to us without thinking, so don’t freak out when a guy looks at another girl. It’s just nature, and we know you were oggling at the cute guy that just walked passed. And hey, guys can have female friends just like girls can have male friends, just because he gets a text from a girl does not mean he is cheating on you. But if this does make things awkward, talk about it.
75. NEVER EVER kick a guy in the balls…seriously. Not even in a fight (play or real) or argument, you can’t imagine how much that hurts (don’t bring up giving birth because you know it’s different). The slightest kick can often have an excruciating delayed reaction…so yeah…just don’t do it…please.
76. When a guy is talkin to a girl, his gut instinct is to make her laugh. Whether he is good at this or not, he will try. As a result boys can sometimes appear immature or weird when you first meet them, but they’re probably just nervous so give them time and get to know them.
77. At some point a guy will try to play fight with you. There are two reasons for this:
a) Guys like to fight and show you how strong they are.
b) It gives them an excuse to touch you.
78. It is very sexy and appealing for a girl to wear a guy’s boxers and shirt. That’s all. We don’t know why that is, but it just is.
79. Guys dont like girls who don’t make an effort. If he travels four hours just to see you for three, appreciate it and don’t admit you wouldn’t do the same, half the time we wouldn’t expect you to anyway!
80. Guys have standards for what type of girl they want to have. Every girl is the perfect girl for somebody.
81. Guys don’t like it when girls amplify things. It’s very annoying.
82. Even the coolest guys, worry a lot about how they come across, they are probably trying very hard to seem so cool. So don’t undermine or mock a guy you like or are friends with, he might not burst into tears but it does not do wonders for his self-esteem. And if you do take the piss, make it fairly clear your joking, it will let the guy know you dont dislike him, you have a sense of humour, and its ok for him to have a come back.
83. If a guy is completely, 100% honest with you about things he’s not to sure/proud of, be grateful, because it can be pretty rare.
84. Although we do relate many things to sex, not everything is literally sexual, they like just being close to you too.
85. Guys only like sluts when they’re single, as soon as their in a relationship, its just annoying.
86. Guys will always be nervous about giving girls presents they like, no matter how close to or comfortabke they are around the girl. Your opinion is just too important to him.
87. Guys are often terrified of a girl they like too much. The way some girls make you feel makes it impossible for you to function, the same reason a lot of guys persue strictly physical relationships.
88. Guys may not know how to handle a relationship, we admit, we’re not the greatest nor the smartest at doing things right. But girls are definitely not any better, so please don’t argue with us and make it seem like you know how things are supposed to be and your ways are right. It may seem logical, but frankly, it always isn’t.
89. Guys love anything you wear. Really. Don’t continuously ask them how you look every time you wear something.
90. THE NUMBER ONE RULE: Don’t rub the lamp if you don’t want the genie to come out.
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SCSM = Standard Chartered Singapore Marathon.
However, I only took part in the 10km division. I’m too lousy for the full or even the half marathon. I figured that I will fare badly for this run because I lacked training and my stamina is not what it used to be. My legs are not used to running yet.
It came as a surprise that I managed only two stoppages to walk. And my timing is 1 hour 8 minutes and 12 seconds!
SCSM09 results
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Ok, this title is “inspired” by a colleague of mine. She sat beside me discussing and bitching about some stuff while doing so, she left her mobile and packet of cigarettes on my table. The pack looks kinda different from what I see here and later I found out that it’s not bought locally. It does contain a health hazard message, “Smoking Kills”. Definitely not packed locally because the cigarettes here contains horrifying pictures of rotten mouth, black lungs, and other grotesque sights such as the following…
"Foot Rot"
"Red Bath"
Wanna "tongue"?
"Neck Implants"
"Kiss Me"
"Oral Me"
I swear to GOD that those images only serve to deter you from eating your food. Not from smoking. Hell, it may even prompt smokers from smoking more because they wanna make a collection of the grotesque pictures. (Pardon me for using the Almighty and Hell one after the next)
Oh, I’m not against smoking. I’m pretty neutral about it as long as you don’t kiss me with smoke in your mouth or something of that equivalent.
So, back to what I was saying. Instantly, an image of a car wreck just pop up in my mind, then I blurted “Driving Kills.” The funny part is that more people die from cars crashes and/or are affected tremendously from it such as loss of limps, paralysis, etc. And yet, the government never paste big ugly shit pictues of car accident victims. In Singapore, it is necessary to cover 50% of the cig box with health warning messages. I wonder when they will do the same for cars. I am damn f***ing sure, that a huge amount of people will not drive cars anymore! Imagine waking up, getting ready for work and your car greets you with pictures of headless/armless/limpless bodies and/or “pancake” bodies.
So all cars should be plastered with such pictures to make our roads a safer place. If that does not work, posters should be hanged at every lampost and traffic lights. Now, that quite a sight.
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I thought I will never have to come here again to blog about my bad days. But I do!
Fuck!
Took leave today for some reasons.
It’s just 11 in the morning and I feel that it keeps getting worse!
FUCK!
I have not felt like this since……….. that time… ( I won’t say what it is)
FUCK!!!
I feel like we’ve been pissing each other off every week. She keeps opening that damn can of worms and I keep finding new stuff to piss her off. How wonderful.
FUCK!!!!!!
I should never have took leave today, I’m happier working and talking with my colleagues instead of sulking at home.
FUCK!!!!!!!!!
I’ve decided to watch 2012 by myself in the afternoon. I have said I will not watch movie alone because it just feel sad. The fact that I am comtemplating it means my mood has reached an extremely low point. The only time I watched a movie alone was 3 years ago. That time I was still fresh from a break up and my mood was very lousy. SHIT!! The same unpleasant feeling again, only this time, anger is thrown in the mix.
FUCK! FUCK! FUCK!
It’s 11am, I’m tired, angry,miserable and hungry………. FUCK MY LIFE!!!
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For most working people out there, here are some interesting “Out of office” notifications you can use (at your own risk)
1. I am currently out at a job interview and will reply to you if I fail to get the position.
I may be a little moody so be prepared.
2. You are receiving this automatic notification because I am out of the office.
If I was in, chances are you wouldn’t have received anything at all.
3. Sorry to have missed you, but I am at the doctor’s having my brain removed so I can be promoted to our management team.
4. I will be unable to delete all the unread, worthless emails you send me until I return from vacation on 4/18. Please be patient, and your mail will be deleted in the order it was received.
5. Thank you for your email. Your credit card has been charged $5.99 for the first 10 words and $1.99 for each additional word in your message.
6. The e-mail server is unable to verify your server connection and is unable to deliver this message. Please restart your computer and try sending again.
(The beauty of this is that when you return, you can see how many in-duh-viduals did this over and over.)
7. Thank you for your message, which has been added to a queuing system. You are currently in 352nd place, and can expect to receive a reply in approximately 19 weeks.
8. Hi, I’m thinking about what you’ve just sent me. Please wait by your PC for my response.
9. I’ve run away to join a different circus.
10. I will be out of the office for the next 2 weeks for medical reasons. When I return, please refer to me as ” Sharon ” instead of “Steve”.
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This is an experience I never had before. Browsing and tasting mooncakes from different stalls. What? What are mooncakes? Cakes baked from the moon? For overseas readers, take a look at this link which will explain more about the importance of mooncakes.
So I was walking around the basement of Takashimaya shopping centre where an event is held parading mooncakes and stuff. Walked like two or three rounds the place, tasting whatever mooncakes available.
Just couldn’t find the right taste that I had in mind. Certainly they looked the same but the difference comes from the lotus paste used to make the lovely pastries. In my mind, I always loved a certain texture and sweetness of the lotus paste. I know where to get it but I did not because the packaging looked very plain. Being eager to please Sharon’s mum (yeah, first proper impression gotta count alot here) I looked for something that taste just as good and comes with a pleasant looking packaging.
Finally I found it! From Ritz-Carlton Hotel! Here’s a shot of it.
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Quite a milestone in my life. This problem has been bothering me for far too long now. My left lower wisdom tooth is growing out horizontally and the one on top is growing longer than it should causing much discomfort when I eat.
Been delaying this because of money issues. People who know me should understand that I went through a period of NO INCOME. And the funny thing is that once I have the income, I do not have the time coz of work.
Kinda makes you feel like a fool living as such doesn’t it? Oh well, in the real world, “you can’t have your cake and eat it”. Anyways, I finally went for the extraction on 30 Sep. Even though I went through the local anesthetic , which means I am still conscious going through the whole procedure. What an experience… The good thing is that I don’t have to see what’s going on in my mouth but the bad thing is I DON’T KNOW WHAT’S GOING ON! The drilling and cutting sounds sure don’t make it any better… I was afraid that they will cut my gums or my tongue, either way, I can’t feel anything but see lotza blood out of my mouth.
So if you’re a vividly imaginative person, it’s hell for you. Otherwise, you just sit there and open your mouth wide and let the dentist do his job. The anesthetic works like magic, I can’t feel much pain around my left jaw but I can feel the tugging at my tooth. Not pleasant at all.
After the whole thing was done, I find myself talking very funny. Just mumbling through my words.
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