Bucket List

Recently, I’ve been introduced to this thing called “Bucket List” I think it’s popularly referred to the list of things you want to do before you kick the bucket i.e die. It sounds slightly morbid and yet inspirational. Morbid because you are aware of your own mortality and wishes to do ths things you wanna do when you still have the chance. Inspirational because you really wanna do the list of things you said you want to.

There was a movie in 2007 named, “The Bucket List” acted by Jack Nicholson and Morgan Freeman. Talks about two terminally ill men who goes to do a list of things they wrote on a bucket list. For more details, go read it yourself as I am not a kind person who spoon-feeds people too lazy to click another link.

I think at one or many points in your life, you said to yourself, “I want to do blah blah blah in my life” so as not to have any regrets. No, I don’t mean the “I want to find a cure for cancer” that kind of ambitious list. More of like, “I want to walk for a kilometre on the Great Wall of China in this lifetime” or “I wanna learn to play the guitar” or “I wanna do sky diving”. Although I am not sure if “earning a million dollars before I am 30 years old” actually count as an item on the bucket list but I guess it can be since it’s a very personal thing.

Anyway, moving along… I seem to lost sight of my own bucket list. Which I think actually contributes to my disdain view on life. I think life is shit and alot of things actually proves this to be true. I don’t find anything beautiful in life. And no, you cannot say I am wrong because let’s face the facts, human beings are the virus of this world. We loot and plunder the natural resources given to us and yet we exploit more. We harm the environment and kill animals and so many other lifeforms that if a being higher than us looks at us, it will view us as a virus, a curse, a useless parasite. Well, that’s my honest opinion on ourselves. Oh no, I am not saying I am different from the rest, I am just like everyone else.

Forgive me, I digress. Back to the bucket list, I think I should work on fulfilling my own bucket list so as to give some sort of meaning to my life. So I urge you guys to do the same too. Do the things you want to do before you kick the bucket. It’s is never too late to do something as long as you are still alive. Don’t say things like “I wanna do this when I am still young” and cram everything in your youth. You might suffer from burn out.

Last but not the least, take a look at this site. People all over the world are sharing their bucket list.

Premier Leech

I resumed my interest in reading once again (YaY!) Not sure what rekindled this passion but anyways, here’s the book I read. Premier Leech by Neil Humphrey. It is actually written by an Englishman living in Singapore. The title of the book is a deliberate play on Premier League. Yes the football league that legions of Singaporeans and football fans all over the globe go mad about every weekends and sometimes mid weeks. I myself was a football fan of Manchester United (yes, boo all you want) until the likes of Rooney, Ronaldo and Anderson came about and personally for me. I am not a blind fan who supports a club with a recent run of silverware successes for the past 2 decades. I can see for myself that the club has changed alot along the way (actually it’s more of modern football as a whole).

Anyway, this book is a fictional book that touches on the ills of modern football. Footballers being paid millions and millions of dollars by playing football while minions like us can only work our socks off for a decent living and yet still cheer them like the stars they are (so far in the sky). Footballers marrying pop stars? Check. Footballers with gambling problems? Check. Agents who help their players negotiate a huge pay check? Check. Footballers who sleep with tons of women other than their own wives/girlfriends? Check. Footballers who sleep with his club mate’s wife? Check! Rich Arabs who buy football clubs just because they can? Check!!!

It is very entertaining to read something so fictional and yet one can relate so closely to familiar names that commit those exact deeds. I was thinking to myself “Isn’t that Terry? Hey! Beckham! Oh wait, Rooney too? Manchester City, Chelsea…” I tell you, it is almost as good as reliving those moments when footballers gripped our hearts with their not so favorable antics and “problems”.

Definitely a good read for football fans and for those who mocks highly paid footballers.

Finally…. The ROCK has come back…

Some of you may know this by now… Hell! If you’re a wrestling fan from the 90s allllllll the way to now, you should have heard of this. THE ROCK HAS COME BACK TO WWE! For those who don’t watch wrestling or don’t know who in the blue hell is The Rock. Well, you can close this window right now and do what you were doing before stumbling your sorry candy ass into my blog.

My interest in wrestling is from my father… I can’t remember exactly what the heck interest me in the first place. I think it was watching Hulk Hogan ripping his shirt off his chest and the funny hand swirling motion which he starts from a resting position and then move up to his ears to hear his fans cheering him on. Yeah, I think that was the moment that wrestling, sorry professional wrestling caught my attention. Some of you will say that wrestling is fake! All staged! How can that hurt?! Yes yes, I know all that stuff. I ain’t a dumb kid anymore. I do not watch wrestling continuously from when I was a kid until now. It’s a on and off kinda thing. All thanks to our media control in Singapore, I don’t get free wrestling programs on my tv anymore. S**** you!

Anyways, I must channel your attention to this ONE man who beyond any debate, any fraction of a doubt and the slightest clue is “de most electrifying man in ALLLLLL of entertainment!”

*crowd cheers*

He is none other than the “jabroni beating, pie eating, trail blazing, eyebrow raising, always ready to whoop some candy ass, THE ROCK!”

*crowd cheers*

He is really the most entertaining man in wrestling. Ever since he left the business, WWE has “NEVER EVVVEEERRRRRR be the same AGAIN!” (quote from Y2J) It took him 7 years to return and I must say, his first segment upon his return is the best moment WWE has ever seen in the past 7 years. John Cena can do his “You can’t see me!”, The Miz walking around saying “I’m The MIZ and I’m AWWWWWWEEEEEEESOMEEEEEE!”, CM Punk going forming gangs after gangs and all these amount not even a quarter of The Rock’s charisma. Enough of talking, I’ll let you watch some clips of his return and you’ll be electrified! (strictly for men aged between 25-34)

The art of answering questions without actually answering

Came across a conversation where somebody talked about answering questions without actually answering them.

Q: What time is it?

A: The right time

Q: So where are you going?

A: Wherever I need to be

Q: Is your food nice?

A: As nice as the person who prepares it

Q: Do you think I am fat?

A: You are what you think you are

My drug

Tiffany: “I don’t understand! Since she is giving you so many problems and heartaches, why don’t you leave her? Certainly I can do better than her. I can be better than her.”

Kenny: “You don’t understand. I can’t.”

Tiffany: “That is what I said! Argh! Why?”

Kenny: “I cannot leave her. She is the very reason why I live. I cannot live without her. She is my drug that I must have constantly.”

X Japan – I.V.

X Japan is a Jrock/metal band. I guessed many of you guys should know their history by now as they started out in the 80s and released their first studio album in 1988 when I was only 4 years old and the world looked so much more innocent and beautiful then.

Come 2010, screw that! World is shit, human beings make me sick and the way we kill the world and justify it by fattening the wallets of big corporation high earners while we peons work so hard to get them the high they take for daily bread.

(the two paragraphs above is plain bullshit. I put it for fun. Continue reading…)

However, just when I looked deeper into the darkness and insanity, X Japan turned up! Or rather, I discovered their music and their music is awesome, somewhere along progressive rock/metal, power metal and symphonic metal. Now I know why some of my friends are such die hard fans… It’s alright because it’s still not too late. X Japan recently reunited and will be releasing an album in Fall 2011… However, hide (Hideto Matsumoto) is no longer around… Your fans will miss you!

Tonight, I wanna share this wonderful song, I.V. with you guys (I know you guys are a small number and I’ve been a lousy blogger). They made this song for the movie Saw 4 as the theme song. For those who watched the movie, maybe you can verify this. The first video is the studio version and if you watched carefully, there are scenes of a guitar hanging from a stand. That is to symbolize and represent hide’s presence in the band. A very respectful way to remember a member so well loved by many in Japan and all over the world.

And check out the concert version below. I love the opening of the song with Yoshiki playing the piano and Toshi’s soulful vocals. Touched me very deeply.

Needles are piercing through my skin
I’ll tell you the feeling what it’s like
Is life just all about deception?

Please don’t be a part of a fairy tale,
but you’re so young to play with thy own will
Should I trade the breath of my life for freedom?

(In the rain) I’m calling you, dear
(Find the way) Can’t you see me standing right here?
(Feel my pain) Life’s bleeding from fear
(Find its place) I will give it straight from my vein

Don’t you ever let life pass you by
They say as if it takes me somewhere

Just let me swallow the faith by injection
Let blood be rushing to my head, my love

I’ve played with this game before
to find a piece of my true self!
I’m lost within!

(In the rain) I’m calling you, dear
(Find the way) Can’t you see me standing right here?
(Feel my pain) Life’s bleeding from fear
(Find its place) I will give it straight from my vein

I.V. in my vein to feel less it’s pain
Can you strip away the mistery of the world
I’ll let it suffer for it’s lie
Till the shape of the shadow fades,
forever fade away

(In the rain) I’m calling you, dear
(Find the way) Can’t you see me standing right here?
(Feel my pain) Life’s bleeding from fear
(Find its place) I will give it straight from my veinÂ

(In the rain) I’m calling you, dear
(Find the way) Can’t you see me standing right here?
(Feel my pain) Life’s bleeding from fear
(Find its place) I will give it straight from my vein

2010 coming to an end

I mean the year 2010 is coming to a close, not the year ending in 2010. This year is rather strange in the sense that a piece of bizarre or weird news will appear…

North Korea went mad with its actions and the two Koreas almost spark off a war. Religious organisations and charities continue to be exposed of their skeletons in their closets (partly explains why I lost faith in religions run by humans). The financial stability of the Western market continues to wobble despite hearing good news of recovery. Natural disasters occuring more often in this part of the world. Protesters went amok in Thailand. Spain won the World Cup after countless years of never ever been close. E&Y, one of the top accounting firms in the world has been discovered to be dishonest! Why can’t they come up with news such as we have a cure for cancer (affordable of course) or things like Enzo strike the $8 million lottery. Singapore needs happy news like these… Then again, how can I win anything when I never bought a lottery ticket??

As for myself, things got pretty interesting… I left Lenovo and joined another company for a few reasons. I am happier because of this. My parents are happier, Sharon is happier… Alot of people are happier… I got a new PC (finally!!) but I am still waiting for that stupid white iPhone to be released =.= I stopped running for awhile and hurt my left knee when I restart my running routine on Monday. I did not join any running event and I am very ashamed of this… I’ve took a step to change this by participating in the 10K event for Adidas Sundown in May 2011. Hope I can get myself back in shape for this.

I lost passion in things I used to adore. My Gundam collection, my role play writing, reading and to a certain extent, drinking as well.. Not sure what is wrong…

Whatever happens, life is good or bad, depending on which side of the fence you are standing on. I just think that we should just stop trying to make our own life meaningful and just live day to day. For the simple fact that life is going to end someday. Ok, that’s just nihilistic.

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Food place tagged with memories

You have heard me talking/bitching/whining about love and such… Well, today is something different. No, I’m not going to celebrate love today cause the church goers are. Realise how I say church goers instead of christians? Yup, you get my drift.

Anyway, not to digress too much on a Sunday morning (cause I’ve got a few things I wanna do today). Now, I’m touching on the restaurants/eating places that make an impact on your relationship. Not just happy and/or loving moments but sad and soulful ones as well.

The most significant places to me is Curry Favour. That is the place I had dinner with Sharon which lead up to me asking her to be my girlfriend. So rightfully that is significant. However, there is just one problem. They are closing down on 25th Nov. It is a huge disappointment because they serve the best Japanese Curry I’ve eaten so far in Singapore. I am a huge fan of J Curry in case you don’t know. The reason they cited for closing down is “We have decided to pursue individual interests”. Just imagine if the same reason is cited for a breakup. Hmmm, I hope our relationship does not mirror this.

Mushroom Stew

This place keeps reminding me of my dream to open a cafe in the future. I have no idea how to achieve this but I do wanna make it possible.

Back to the topic, there are a few places that is significant to me as well.

• Manhattan Fishmarket @ Plaza Singapura
• Manhattan Fishmarket @ The Central
• Sushi Teh @ Paragon
• New York New York @ AMK Hub
• Astons @ The Cathay

Each one for a different reason. The first one is because I bought a watch for Sharon’s birthday. It is the first time after a long period that I bought an expensive gift for a girl. To be honest, I do not know why I bought the watch for her. No matter how I deny, there is a part of me that wanted her to be my girlfriend at that point in time. She made me feel like I want somebody in my life even though I’m certain I do not. Emotions… A gift and a curse.

I shall not elaborate the rest… For those reading, you might wanna take a few minutes to think about your own places of memories and remind yourself why you love the person you chose to love. Love is amazing, it is hurtful but it makes you whole. Do not live the moments that break you, keep them in your mind and not in your heart. Learn from the pain and do not live your life in vain. Things happen for a reason, sometimes purely random occurrences. Always remember that it is your reaction that matters and not the event that has unfolded.

The invisible friend

Sometimes, I feel like an ass. I am like the friend that is never there. I can be online, on MSN, on facebook or appear as a number on your phone book. But no matter what, you hardly see me around.

Not that I dislike the whole lot of you who I call friends. Not that I do not give a shit about how you are doing. But rather, I see no need getting too involved in each and everyone’s lives. Sounds kinda cold? I think so too. I lost friends that way but friends who know me, knows that is the way I am.

I may not be there for the occasional drink, dinner, movie, chit chat or any other event/activity. Does not mean I do not care. Maybe I do, maybe I do not. I am not the kind of friend who always hang out with you, calls you “brother brother” but that’s just me. I’m quiet and reserved and prefers myself to be that way most of the time. Sorry if I let anyone of you down by being so quiet and passive in your lives.

Good friends are like stars….You don’t always see them, but you know they are always there.

However, do know that I am always there to listen to you. I know it may not seem much but I’ll always do what I can for you. I have helped friends through my “invisible” presence and some friends just think I am being an ass for not contacting them. Not that I do not treasure you as a friend but I just do not feel the need to be in your life on a regular basis.

I think I’m just weird that way but I like myself for being the way I am. I rather be the invisible friend who helps you and offer a listening ear rather than the regular friend who gets involved in your lives but lets you down when you need a helping hand (not saying that all your friends are as such).

I’ll like to thank the kind people who still regards me as a friend through all these years! You know who you are and there is no need to name people here.

In the End, we will remember not the words of our enemies, but the silence of our friends.
-Martin Luther King, Jr. (1929-1968)